Sorry y'all. It's been a month since I've posted so if you actually try to keep up with me...well, I have been posting pictures here and there on Facebook so that has to count for something. In case you were wanting a small update and some food for thought though, I decided I needed a study break so buckle up. We have 4 or 5 weeks worth of catching up to do, but I'll try to keep it concise.
I finished my application for the State Department for the summer so I'm pulling for something good to fall my way again.
I just finished a couple of other applications for the DoD and the DoJ.
I'm currently trying to finish my application for the CLS program.
I got approved to study abroad in Quito, Ecuador. Don't ask me about Quito because I don't know a single thing. I'm thinking I might go in completely blind just so the trip is full of surprises.
ANCHORSPLASH IS OVER. Veronica and I set a record--over $25,000 raised for Service for Sight. I could not be more excited about it either.
Aside from that, I started my new internship with Tilley & Nichols consulting firm and I absolutely love it. I've gotten to work with Joe Dorman a little bit and I have to say, the thought of the political world does still spark my interest. We'll see though, I really enjoy the track I'm on so far. Which leads me into my next topic.
Do you ever feel like you're in the wrong profession? Or that you're studying the wrong profession? It's not necessarily wrong because you don't love it--I love what I'm studying and both of my majors. Sometimes though, I catch myself wondering if I'm in the wrong thing because I'm so good with people. I know what most of you are thinking--Rachele...good with people? Loud, obnoxious Rachele??? Yeah, me. I have realized lately that I don't meet a stranger, and even when I do, I bet you I could have them telling me their life story in our first fifteen minutes of meeting. I'm just that comfortable and trustworthy. I'm good at my major because I bust my rear end to be good at it, but working with people is just natural to me.
But over here in the real world (by real world, I mean everything within the confines of the University of Oklahoma) things have been rough. When they tell you 17 hours might be kind of tough...boy they weren't kidding you. It's the hardest thing I've ever done! I really enjoy my classes, but each one is full of a TON of information. I absolutely adore my professors but all of them know so much about their topic that sometimes it's hard for me to keep up with my notes in class. I'm enjoying four midterms this week and it's the hardest thing I've ever had to try to keep up with. Thankfully, my friend Troy has kept me on track with my studying by basically being my accountability partner and studying with me whenever I need him to. What a wonderful thing, huh?
Nonetheless, as good as I usually am at juggling a full schedule, this whole 17 hours, an internship, and a directorship with DG thing (which is basically over now that Anchorsplash is done) is NOT EASY. I hit my breaking point last week. Yeah...yeah it was pretty ugly. It was like a ton of panic and anxiety hit me all at once--school work is hard to keep up with, I never have the energy to do anything "fun" or to even be that social anymore, and for the first time since I got to college, I got REALLY homesick. So appreciate your parents, boys and girls, because I sure do miss my mom. I'm lucky to be surrounded by a pretty great group of people here though. Sunday dinners with my best friend Brandon give me a sense of routine and normalcy; Aves, Bake, and David provide the comic relief and when I need a listener, I bug Austin until he's free. Not to mention, I always have Mel way out in Arkansas to listen to me too.
As unemotional as I used to be, I feel like this semester has turned me into a basket case. I constantly catch myself being more and more irritable, losing my temper, and wanting to just tear up at the drop of a hat. Sometimes keeping it together is harder than you think. BUT THAT'S OKAY. It is okay to have an off day every now and then. Feelings are acceptable, they are not meant to be an embarrassing thing. They are what makes us human--it is not a weakness.
Sigh. That was a mouthful. OU-saxeT is this weekend and I'm pumped. But until then, I'll be studying my brains out.
Until next time, y'all.
The best thing about the future is that it only comes one day at a time.
-Abraham Lincoln
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